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Bookend (it's the weekend)

It's Friday today.

The end of the week.

Fri-yay.

Have a good weekend.

Thank Goodness it's Friday 

Thank God it's Friday 

It's the weekend!

I've got that Friday feeling.

No matter how many ways it is framed, the fact remains that I experience Fridays differently to other days.

It's a combination of knowing I have 2 days in a row where I don't participate in work, and an awareness that the working week is finishing up.

I feel a sense of relaxation and slowing down.

I feel a sense of motivation and increased drive.

I can take it easy for a few days.

And I had better optimise the last hours of the working week, so I have a clean slate on Monday morning.

How long will my life be a dance of working weeks and 2 day weekends?

I have a desire growing in my soul, and it says: "There has to be more to life".

My life can't be like the rush hour, when the roads are full, the traffic is slow, and there is a constant sense of stress because I want to go faster and so does everyone else. 

Like we are driving with both the brake and the accelerator pushed down.

I want to relax, but just let me cram this last task in. 

Another email.

Oh and I forgot to get dinner ready. 

I better do that other thing too. 

My day is fuller then ever, but my heart and soul are feeling echoey.

It is time to pause and reflect, and then choose the next step consciously.

Otherwise, I'll be living for the weekends, chasing bookends, and giving the sweet rich marrow of life to the pursuit of someone else's dreams...

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